5 Years Time

Five years ago today I became exclusively committed to my soulmate. I can't believe it's been 5 years and at the same time I can't believe it's only been 5 years. It's weird to think we met when I was 13, almost 10 years!

He has been with me through literally thick and thin. He's been my rock and my pillow. We've both come such a long way from when we were teenage high schoolers. He was a year older than me but we were best friends from beginning to end (I may have also had a crush on him). When he graduated we stayed in touch but it wasn't the same. The following year I graduated and randomly we started hanging out again. 9 days after my birthday he asked me out and here we are five December 29's later. Now we are engaged, live together, and have two adorable dachshunds. Funny how life works out.

He is my soulmate, the cheese to my macaroni, he is my everything and I will never trade him for anything in this life. I feel like the luckiest girl who has ever walked the earth. I just wish everyone could find this kind of love just once in their lives because once you know it exists you won't be able to give it back.

Here we were 8 years ago:

Here we are 8 years later: 

Happy Almost Christmas

You guys the year is almost over! Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I've been 23 for 3 whole days. Weird. This is the age my dad was when I was born, I have yet to have ze babies. Anywho, I'm so not prepared for any of this. Christmas is usually my favorite time of year. To me the season means: my birthday, x-mas (and anniversary) shopping, hot cocoa, hot coffee, everything red and white, pine, warmth, christmas eve and day, and finally our anniversary. Well this year it has been hot, I'm incredibly broke, and it doesn't smell like pine anywhere. It's been a sad christmas for many reasons but we are trying to make the most of it. We're lucky to be healthy, a roof over our heads, and a lot of love. I just wish everyone was a bit more merry. I can't wait till the year is over though. It's been amazing (we got engaged) and it's been upsetting (I got laid off twice and currently in a big fat pile of debt). I will keep my head up because I start school in January and hopefully a new job.

Enough of my sadness. I hope that your christmas is amazing and filled with love and warmth. If you've had a so-so year like me, know it's almost over and a new one should start better than how this one ended.

Eggs and Bacon

Dudes we had breakfast with our parents in our home this past sunday. It was so nice to have them here on such a beautiful day. It was healthy and fatty and wonderfully breakfast-like.

Have a looksie for yourselves. I know, mmmmmmm.

 Isn't this one super cool and creepy all at the same time?

Also, I noticed I got some more page views which is AWESOME! Please leave comments so I can say hola! :) 

Happy weekend. 

It's Not About the Road

In 11 days I will be 23! I can not wait, I'm one of these weird people who looks forward to being a year older. Don't judge. There is no judgement here, ok!

Since December began I've been on this little quest of trying to truly define who I am and the person I want to be. So far, so good. We all deal with the whole, "who am I?", "who do I want to be?", and "where am I headed?". Lately I have partial answers to these questions, which, I am very proud of myself.  From the time I turned 18 I've just been sorta been all over the place and it sucks not having any idea to anything. I started questioning a lot of things I once had the concrete answer to and I'm back in that place where I can decide wholeheartedly for myself. Truth is we start fitting into ourselves with age so there is never a definite real you there is always the real you at the moment because we are ever changing.

It's nice to have an idea of who you eventually want to be. I'm really excited to enter my 23rd year. I feel like I will grow a bit more into being an adult. I feel really good about it. There are a few things I want to do and people I am excited to meet, who they are I have no clue.

In the end, this little road of self discovery started off really rough and it's become very nice and smooth in the past few days.

Streaming

You guys! Are you aware that Netflix has the best movies in their streaming?! Well lately I've been all about the Netflix. I have yet to come across an unknown movie that I didn't like. I'm all about the docs right now and we just finished one about the New York Times, which was pre-tty scary (and sad). Earlier I saw Bomb It that was about graffiti art. It was funny because last night (preview night at Wynwood for Art Basel) COPE was their exhibiting some of his graffiti on canvas. I didn't like it as much as I did in the movie but hey we all need a dollar, right?

Any interesting stuff you seen lately?

It's the Most Wonderful Time

It's finally December and I am happy!!! It's my favorite time of the year. It's finally getting cool in Miami and I can finally take out my cold weather clothes. Hooray!!!!

This month I celebrate:

• my 23rd birthday
• christmas 
• our 5 year anniversary (can you believe it 5 years?!)

We've already set up our very first christmas tree together and it's so pretty. 

 

Lately

Sorry for being gone so long, but I'm baaaack. Lately we've been getting ready for Thanksgiving and have everything ready to begin cooking. We're hosting this year being that we just moved out so I'm pretty excited for it and to begin holiday traditions. This year Thanksgiving lands on my dads birthday (dude's going to be 46!) and we'll be stuffing our faces. For the first time EVER it's going to be an all-american menu. Every other year someone brings white rice and black beans, fried plantains, pork, you know typical cuban food, but not this year. Our house, our menu!

Anywho, do any of you have any holiday traditions?

P.S. Here's a little photo of what will be our wreath. Oh I'm also practicing my creativity so excuse the red blank space.

Rejects

So it's pretty late in the home front but I just can't go to sleep. I know the blogs' been a bit abandoned and I apologize but I don't want to bore you with all my sadness. I promise one day the blog will be a happy piece of sunshine but until then please bare with me. :)

Lately I've been feeling very unwanted, rejected if you will. It's been a chain of events that have made me feel this way. For one, I can't seem to find a job, which, has me very down. Not like sad but actually depressed. Like I've said before this is the first time in a few years that I have nothing to do and I'm going crazy. I honestly feel like I'm letting my partner, parents, and all those I love, down. I can't bear it, I'm not suicidal and in no way do I think that's the way out but I'm pretty down. I don't have anything into which I can focus all my time and energy into. I tried photography but it only satisfies a little/big part of me. I'm only 22 and I feel as tired as a person who's had 4 jobs a day for 50 years with no rest. Does that make sense?

It sucks. I'm supposed to be enjoying this time in my life and instead I've spent a few years obsessing, overanalyzing, and depressed. Even though I have my absolutely amazing boyfriend who at times I feel as if he doesn't truly understand what I mean when I say I'm frustrated. Also, I'm lucky to have Adele to listen to, although the content isn't the same (yet it is) she still gets me. But I digress. Yes I know, sentences shouldn't begin with but.

I want need this feeling to end. This feeling of being unwanted, unneeded, empty, stressed, anxious, this feeling of nothing good or positive.

Anyway, I hope soon enough my little space in the interwebs is like a ray of sunshine in your lives until then don't let me bring you down.

Peace out. :)

Journal Day

One of my favorite bloggers started a Journal Day on her blog and invited all of her readers to join in. I guess I'll give it a try.

There's been so many moments in life, both good and bad, that have a hand at shaping us into the person we are today.  When looking back at our lives as a whole, it can be hard to pinpoint exact instances where we've changed immensely or grown as people- often these are gradual changes that sneak up on us over time. It's only when we take a huge step back and really think about it, are we able to see all these sequences of events as separate pieces.  And sure, hundreds of different events play a part in bringing us into the present, but when you really break it down, there are definitely moments that stand out more than others.

So with that said -


Looking at all of the life you've lived so far, can you pinpoint one time frame or instance that you feel truly contributed to your growth as a person?  This may be a turning point, a positive or negative experience, a moment or collection of moments that stand out in your mind...something that changed you as a whole. 
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I've always known that couples argue and that things don't always go the way we planned but I never expected it to be like this. See my parents have always argued about regular things like, my dad forgetting to pay the light bill or my mom putting water where the oil goes in the car. About six years ago we went to Cuba to visit family and my dad started to seem different to me. He was drinking more (I'd never seen him drink more than a beer) and smoking cigars like it was his mission, and then his attitude got a little bit too weird for me. 


A little over a year passes and I've got a good job and well a brand new car that I could afford thanks to my job. Around the same time both my parents lose their jobs, cars, and we lose our home to foreclosure. We decide to move to another home and rent. Now this is where my life goes from very contempt and happy to I wish they were never my parents. I begin to notice that my dad is gambling, not coming home, and well flat out disrespecting my mom and me. He's never been physically abusive but he's good at playing your brain like he's playing the guitar. In retrospect, it would've been smarter for my mom and I to just move out by ourselves seeing as I was the sole supporter. Instead I found myself at the tender age of 19 arguing with my dad to the point we nearly fist fought, seeing them fight every single day, catching him stealing money from our purses, waking up to them arguing in the middle of the night, and finally knowing that while my mom was at home alone he was in bed with another woman. See it turns out he was having an affair with a lady who my mom cooked for. How did I find out? Well what did it was I saw them together one night. My mom knew and just didn't care.


Whoever's reading this now I know the above doesn't seem like a big deal because let's face it most men cheat but in my family that's the worse thing you can do to your family. Now the cheating continues for about 2 years up until I call the cops on her for nearly crashing into my car one evening but this story isn't about her. My parents continue to argue and in my opinion flat out disrespect each other everywhere. My mom would call him out in front our family and he would just call her names. She would go to the ladies' house and yell at her. All the while I'm trying to find a way to pay for a house,utilities,  a car, insurance, gas, cell phones, groceries, and internet yet this is how they repay me. How did I pay for all that? Well, some was from my paycheck and the others credit cards. Now to make matters worse my grandmother and uncle never helped me. They never asked how I felt about all this or if I needed help. Instead I got this, "you know they're you parents and you need to stick around and help them through this time of need." Oh and my favorite, "they're lost and they don't know what they're doing but if you leave we will never speak to you again." Frankly, I should've left and never looked back but what kept me around was knowing that I am all my mother has. All of her family is still in Cuba and I am her only child so I couldn't fathom the fact that if I left it would literally kill her. She tried a few times to bring things to normal but I think at some point she gave up and stopped trying to keep it all together. Luckily my boyfriend stuck around for me and helped me through this. 


It has been a year since that storm fully calmed but I cannot forgive my parents for all the stress and responsibility they put on me at such a young age. I don't forgive my grandmother or my uncle for letting me go through it alone, no child should be put through such drama no matter their age. I was forced to grow up over night and take care of things that were not my responsibility. I don't want pity and I don't need people to tell me how brave I am. What I want is for other people out there who may go through the same or similar situations to know that you don't need a strong support system of friends or family all you need is one person who believes in you and will take care of you when the ones who are supposed to be there fail you. I don't resent my parents completely because it taught me that no matter what happens in this life I am a fighter. I was put through mental abuse, depression, anxiety, and a lot of hostility and thankfully made it out the other side a better person for it. I'm not totally over that time in my life because it's tough for me, my boyfriend still doesn't forgive my parents but he looks passed that and I love him for it. 


I'm not sure if all this will make sense but I just needed to get it out and luckily Danielle posted this today. 

A-Z about ME!

I've been seein' this all over my favorite blogs so why not, right?

Age: 22

Bedsize: Queen

Chores that you hate: Washing dishes

Dogs: I got 2 Dachshunds

Essential start to your day: coffee

Favorite color: purple, mustard yellow, AND black

Gold or Silver: neither, platinum.

Height: 5’5”

Instruments you play: none

Job title: Unemployed.

Kids: Zero, Zip, Zilch, None, Nada

Live: Miami, Fl

Mother’s Name: Milagros

Nicknames: Liz, Lissy, Flissy, Lizard, Reset, Flissers

Overnight hospital stays: Birth

Pet peeves: Rudeness, Skimpy dressed women

Quote from a movie or tv show: “You probably heard we ain't in the prisoner-takin' business; we in the killin' Nazi business. And cousin, business is a-boomin'."

Right or Lefty: right-handed

Siblings: None

Time you wake up: around 10am

Underwear: um, the underwear kind

Vegetable you hate: cauliflower

What makes you run late: my fiance.

X-Rays You’ve Had: teeth

Yummy food you make: bacon mac and cheese, grilled cheese sandwich, pizza, arroz congris

Zoo Animal: no animal should be held in captivity! 

It's the Simple Things

Last night I went to get some food at the supahmahket (I'm never coming off my Bahstun high.) and finally found the butter that my S.I.L had at home. It's called Earth Balance and it's the worlds healthiest (not!) butter. It is friggin' delicious and if I could marry it, I would. Now this is a big thing because (dun. dun. dun) I HATE butter. I repeat: I HATE BUTTER! There is this common misconception that Cubans love anything and everything greasy, well guess what? not this one. Anyway, I digress, I am in love with this butter it's like that awesome butter they put on like grilled cheese sandwiches and you never know where it's from and you taste it for days but still don't know. Well, that's what that butter means to me. I am now complete. Thank you Publix for being awesome.


P.S. 2 days till fall!

P.S.S. Miami doesn't know what that season is.

Willingly Untitled

I'm in a slump. Ever since I came back from Cambridge I've been contemplating on whether to go back for a month or if to safe my money and stay here. The worst of it is when both (you and your partner) lack any motivation. In regards to school, I have no clue whatsoever what I want to study and I always go back to the things I tend to cling to. I want to take more risks and lose things and not be so safe. I want to mess up, get lost, enjoy moments, and then become a stable person. Why is it so difficult? Although I'm rambling, it's what I need to do. I lack inspiration. Maybe I should write more and complain less.

Oh well I'm going to return to my edits. Till soon. Stay Classy.

woopsie daisy

hey there bloggy blog!

sorry for the abandonment, didn't mean to. scouts honor! i've been in Cambridge for like a whole week now and well i really don't feel like writing. we've been exploring a few spots being that this is our second time here but for the first time we have... TIME! it's great, we're staying at my sis-in-laws apartment and well we feel like we don't want to go back to Miami.

Harvard has to be the most awe inspiring University i've ever seen. like it's crazy/beautiful. i'm obsessed. oh my law and i also went to my first Trader Joe's, holy baby jesus! it was awesome. so much yumminess for like half the price at w. dixie. for those of you who don't know what winn dixie or publix are, don't worry you're not missing much. well yeah we had to stock up on food bc hurricane irene was coming but turns out that she gave up on the way here and we got a bit of rain only.

on other news, today we head to Salem and i couldn't be any more excited.

Half organized, completely happy

Hello minions!

As of friday I am an independent 22 yr old lady! The beau and I are officially living together under unwed bliss and it's great, except the first night where I cried like a baby because I missed my moms (lady's amazing).

I've spent the past 3 days cleaning and rearranging and cleaning and rearranging some more. I don't think that vicious cycle will ever end. Oh, have I mentioned I HATE moving? No? Well I HATE it! I've moved 5 times in less than 5 years and that has taken a toll on my poor sweet travelling soul. Although moving comes with its perks, like, getting rid of things you no longer need(or use), clothes you've outgrown (due to the lbs you've put on), and mostly things that your mom brought home that are useless. The worst part about moving is my moms gazillion pound weighing showcase which I no longer have to worry about, now it's all up to my pops to handle that. SCORE! 

Anywho, now it's all up to me to keep my little home all warm and cozy. Also, to make sure it's clean and smellin' fresh AND cooking. Out of all those my fave's the cooking, have I mentioned I am a mean chef? Well I am, it's not only therapeutic but I love it. I love trying new recipes, as well as, creating my own. So far it's all been a HIT and no misses, yet.  And I also care for two dachshunds that own my cold and bitter heart. Those two are not only a handful but they are the worst. All they do is play all day and my sweet baby girl just humps away on her brother (it's ok he's fixed).

Well I am done for the day, off to bed now.

I really hope someone is reading this. :D

Keeping up with...

this blog! 


OK sooooo I really enjoy writing for this blog BUT I need to remember to write daily. It's kind of tough keeping up with it but I must learn. Or at least like how Yoda told Luke: "No! Try not. Do, or do not. There is no try." I just got to do.  


Anyway, so I'm also on the obsession track with Weeds. No not actual weed but the show. You know the one with the suburban mom turned drug dealer. Yeah that one, well I love it! They're so dysfunctional it works. Sometimes it's too much with the fiction or trying too hard to make it real but I try to overlook it because well the overall tone of it is great.


I'm also on a martial arts movie overhaul! I finally saw Chocolate, not Chocolat that piece of crap Johnny Depp and Juliette Binoche movie but the Thai one with Jeeja Yanin who kicks absolute gluteus. Then we moved on to Raging Phoenix, not as amazing but the fighting was super cool. Last night we finally finished Legend of the Fist: Return of Chen Zen, which was like totally effing great!  


So what are some of your recommendations? or shall I say, favorites?

Peace out homes! 

Nothing but questions

As a kid all I could look forward to was being an adult and being married and now that I'm an adult all I can think about is what career to go into. It's been a weird few weeks, I'm still trying to get adjusted to being unemployed and all I can do during the day is think. What do I think of?

Thought 1: How are we going to handle rent?

Thought 2: How can I provide as a woman?

Thought 3: What am I going to do with my life?

It has been three weeks and I have ZERO answers for myself. All I keep hearing from friends is, "well take this time to figure things out." Yeah, pffffft, easy for them to say. I mean life doesn't exactly suck, I just don't know what to do.

How can I get over all these insecurities? At least I still have Erics advice, "Life's tough, get a helmet!"

Thanks for reading.

Man Up

Life is all about decisions sometimes they're tough and sometimes they come fairly easy. About a month ago my boyfriend asked me to marry him to which I said, "No sh*t boo, yeah of course I will!" Yeah it really happened like that. Oh, did I mention I had bought us tickets to fly to New York that weekend? Well yeah I had and I guess he decided to man up and propose. It was the sweetest most mortifying thing he's done to date. Even though he knew I'd say yes he was soooo nervous. 

 I'm a taken woman

oh love!

One of Many

Hello!

Please make yourself comfy! 

The name's Lissette, nice to meet you and welcome to my little space of internet. 

I'm very new to this whole blogging world so please bare with me and I promise to try and deliver the goods. 

In order to get a feel of who I am here are some fun facts.

• I'm 22 years young and engaged
• I'm goofy, extremely sarcastic, loud, and cuss like a sailor (I will try and keep it at a minimum)
• Born in a little island south of Florida called Cuba
• I have a HUUUUUUGE family but am an only child
• About to leave the nest
• I'm all about movies, music, pop culture, and magazines
• I'm obsessed with my Dachshund, Cali
• I love the darkness in things, perhaps a bit too much

As I mention above I am engaged and soon we will leave the nest. This blog will help us chronicle our journey as two young people in love to two grown ups in love and discovering a whole new world together. 

Feel free to comment.

Here goes nothing! 

P.S. This is what we look like.