Thoughtful on a Tuesday

I don't know where I want this blog to go but one thing I do know, I want it to be a place for open discussion. This semester in school I'm taking some interesting classes that for the most part make me truly think and question on what type of person I will become, or, rather what ideologies I will hold dearly.

I do not want to be a person that judges quickly but rather a person who asks the right questions. I do not want to represent hate instead I want to be thought of as loving and understanding. Most importantly I do not want to be thought of as ignorant or a genius but rather someone who is well educated. I want to represent what is good in the world so that I can pass it on to those I care about and I want them to question things and want to grow. Actually, I need to grow. I don't ever want to be a victim of my circumstances instead I want to learn and move forward so that others know that we don't ever have to be at a standstill.

I am lucky to have found love very young and to be surrounded by others who love and respect me as I do them. I have yet to really "figure" myself out but I'm getting there and I guess what I'm getting to is, never feel that you are in a hurry to be someone or something else, take your time and learn about yourself and the world. As I learned today we are all self-possessed and it is not a negative thing. Be honest, kind, understanding, and loving to yourself because after all we can only be ourselves for a short amount of time. 

New Year, Tweaked Resolutions

First things first, HAPPY NEW YEAR! 

I'd share my resolutions/goals but right now something else is on my mind and it is, Hunger Games! I read it in 3 days, first time I read book in such a hurry. I was hooked from the beginning, it's like I was hunted and just dragged. Not that the book dragged, if anything the exact opposite. It was eventful from beginning to end. Let me talk about Peeta for a minute or how I like to call him Mr. Bread. Is he dreamy or what? It doesn't help that movie Peeta is a total fox. His character is so valiant, kind, and all around good guy. Moving on to Katniss, I LOVE LOVE LOVE her. She's the strongest teenager I've read about and regarding her struggles I can relate minus the hunger thing. Well Gale I don't know much about him except he loves Katniss more than he's admitted. This love triangle is too much for me. I need to get to Catching Fire and Mockingjay in a hot minute before Part 1 comes out in theatres. Sorry I rambled so much but I am way too excited about having read the book. 


So now on to my resolutions for 

1/ Lose some poundage. Lately I've caught myself breathing really heavy and staying out of air faster than I used to. I started riding bike whenever I get the chance and first thing I did was kiss soda goodbye. I'm not really tweaking my diet I'm just using moderation as my key to success. 

2/ Say YES. I realized that I missed out on some good memories this past year by being a debbie downer and not attending certain things. So I made it a point to say yes. 

3/ Take more photos. I need to practice, practice, practice my photography. I'm really quite alright but I need to be great. I'm trying to find my inspiration and focus on one thing to excel and photography is my "thing".

4/ Visit new cities. Pretty basic, we all want to travel. This year I want to meet Florida, the real Florida. The small towns, the colleges, the swamps, the seaside plazas. I can't wait. I also want to see the Pacific so I hope we can do that. 

5/ Express myself better. I've let a few relationships fizzle due to my lack of communication. Frankly I'm not a very open person but I also don't try to be, not even with my closest friends. When I am open I tend to say the wrong words or ramble (please see above to know what I mean). 

So there it is guys a small glimpse of my resolutions. I have a few more but I don't want to bore you with them. I hope you all had a delicious holiday season and that the new year is kind.